Recently I've been completely bored. I got a new laptop for Xmas so hopefully I keep up with this blog. I has the stomach virus right nao. Also I really wanna do cosplay really well. I would like to do Nadia from Nadia: Of the Mysterious Blue Water, and Aku Yamine the Vocaloid. I want to get a job soon, so I can buy wigs, costume,ect.
I haven't written in a while. But I won't give up hope. *
I haven't written on this blog in a few months. I felt as "hey no ones reading it anyways.." But I decided I would make some time to still write on it whether no one wants to look at it or not. Let me just tell you my life story. Througout my whole life I was the only child. When my little sister was born I was around 10 1/2 or 11... She was born with sickle cell anemia. I went from having tons of attention to the attention being shifted to my little sister. When my family moved to a suburb I was 11 going on 12. I was very interested in Chinese and Japanese culture and music. That didn't sit well with my classmates and I was bullied by boys and girls because of it. I made a good friend but she moved away the next summer. I have to say that my 8th grade year I went through alot and saw the world for what it is. I remember I went to Manhatten a couple of weeks before school started. I said that I would try to be as cute as possible this year. Things changed for the worst socially for me at school. I did have a boyfriend who was a Highschool freshman in October. When I first met him I thought why would someone like him, all tall with his blonde hair and blue eyes have any interest in me. He would walk all the way from his home to mine after school some days just to see me. We were supposed to go to homecoming together but the school banned middle schoolers. I broke up for him. Not because of homecoming but I think it was hard for me to believe a cute guy would like me and be so kind to me. I still remember this night it was December 23,2009. I went on a site called meebo. I was lonely and I pm'd some guy. He turned out to be 30(so he claimed) and Chinese-American. He told me lame stuff like his Girlfriend had cheated and he was a virgin. We exchanged phone numbers and this would be the start of an ugly situation. I was severely depressed,drinking, barely had friends at school, stealing and my grades were at an all time low. He used mind games and he seemed sweet and lovingly but he would incorperate sexual things and then claim it was my fault. He also said that I attracted older men and especially Asian men. I won't say why he said this but the reasons he said so were stupid. I was even stupider for believing his lies and letting him control and use me. We got into an arguement he told me "Have a good life. Dont ever talk to me again. I wish the best for you. Bye." The ironic part was I was the finale in the school talent show the day after and sung "Konna Ni Chikaku De". I felt dependent on him and I just thought he would come back as he always did. Did he ever, Thank goodness no. The scary part is I never physically met him but he still abused me. I remember when I would be fed up and mad at my ma I'd say "I hate myself, come pick me up." He didn't say NO. He said "Okay. Why though?" He never did pick me up cus' I'd later say everything is alright. But If he wanted to find me he had enough information to. I was mad and confused because I had no one to discuss it with. I told my therapist who told my mom. I felt as everyone was mad at me. I swear. I SWEAR that at my bus stop a few times I saw a man that look'd a lot like him who drove by for maybe two or three days. He looked at me..Mad. Maybe It wasnt him and I'm crazy but I'm sure I saw that man and I'd never seen him in my neighboorhood before none the less my bus stop. No longer than about three weeks later I wrote a bomb threat at school.. One of my friends snitched so I told the truth about everything. I said I was depressed and I had to be mentally evaulted "Do You see things? Has anyone in your family had mental problems? Do You hear voices?" NO. I was taken to a mental hospital for adolescents and kicked out of school. I was put on prosiac and I would laugh at the dumbest things. Smile all the time for no reason which is not my nature. My mom knew something wasnt right. I'm not on it anymore :). Anyways I spent the summer at home with barely any peer interaction. I would watch Clannad in my basement all day and play Visual novels. The problem is when school started I have social anxiety. I have to say that I now believe Happiness is a Mind state. Just as suffering. This is just my little story. Now I have all A's in school, plenty of friends I hang out with, don't get in trouble at home and I've decided to be Happy.
So to everyone that does and doesnt read this all I have to say is
Love Long and Prosper("Hey you got it wrong!" Me: No its an Mflo song... I'm so lame lol)
The first day was good. I wish I would have wirtten while it was fresh on my mind. Today walking into school the boy I admire was behind me. I held the door open for him he said thanks. I was sooo scared to reply, so I ran lol.
Also my birthday is next week so new phone!
Today was also picture day. Let's hope they looked so pretty!
Tommorow is the first day of the best four years of my life... *
Tommorow is when I start High school. I'm already nervous being a) A freshman b) new to the school and c) my dad is going to be the principal > o <~!!! Plus I won't really know anyone.!
Well tommorow I'm going to wear a Jean Floral hemmed spagetti strapped summer dress w/ a pink cardigan sweater a pink bow in the back of my hair and some Mary Jane style black shoes~!
I'll report how it went when I come back tommorow.
Oh and I doubt anyone EVER reads this blog. But the statistics say I get at least like one view each day, I think its the same person. And I've only got ONE comment so far. SoOoOoOoO that being said:
PuhLeeeeease COMMENT!! Pleease. Like you can even like troll my blog I just dont wanna sound stupid blogging to myself lol.
Yesterday was my entering 9th grade oreintation... I was sooo nervous. I wore a lacey cute off white blouse and a tan plaid skirt with a big black&white polka dot hair bow. When the day first started I was sorta late. There was a tunnel of upper classmen/link leaders screaming and waiting. I had to go through the tunnel of students. I was so scared that I walked through a little but ran back to my ma at the gym door. My mom told me not to be afraid. I walked slowly scared and my dad was at the end of the tunnel because he's the school principal. "Hey sweetie you look beautiful!" he told me. I told him how nervous I was and he assured me not to be afraid and that the upperclassmen were there to make us feel comfortable. I sat on the bleachers with about 250+ other freshman. I felt alone because I didnt know anyone. It took me a lot to hold back tears. I think I'm having a lot of social anxiety because I haven't been around a lot of people my age this summer. We did a lot of activities. Then we went into groups into a classroom. There were other freshman and two upperclassmen "link" leaders. We did activities w/ them. They also gave us props to wear on our tour. Our group was the pirates so we had eyepatches. I wore mine around my neck bc I didnt want to look silly. When it was over I went to my dad's office and we ate Wendey's for lunch. I really hope on the first day of school I won't be so scared like I was yesterday... Well wish me luck for Tuesday~
I feel that a Mosque should be put on Ground Zero in New York City. I understand a lot of people were killed in the 9/11 attacks and stuff but how can you punish the people who practice Islam in the area for what just a few extremist did. That's like when people tell black people to forget about slavery cus "IT WAS ONLY LIKE 200 YEARS AGO HERDERP" Which I don't blame all white people for slavery which would be stupid and I hardly know any black people that do. The same as I can guarantee at least a couple of people in my school will have family lines tied through slavery. Heck why don't we blame every white person in this country after all they did kill those "savages" called Native Americans. Oh yeah let's also blame Jews because they like killed Jesus. Oh and let's blame all Japanese people because of Pearl Harbor. And Let's banish all black's because of the LA riots where 50 people were killed. The point is yes I understand A LOT of people died in the 9/11 attacks but if we generalize and punish one race of people then hey let's blame everyone. Cus' ya know what if you look through history every type of person has commited a tragedy. Which leads me to the point as which people say it's insensitive. Last time I checked this country gave people rights to Freedom of Religion but NOTHING about sensitivity. Personally it isn't like the mosque will be bothering people. I mean if you don't practice Islam DON'T go there that simple. The Bible talks about rape, slavery, and other horrible things should a church be dubbed insensitive being placed by a Battered woman's home? You decide... But anyway before people start commenting and saying I'm a muslim blah blah yes my birth name is Aminah. Doesn't get more arabic and muslim than that bit let me tell you this no I don't practice Islam or Christianity but I don't believe in bashing people because of their religion. Seriously people don't generalize, and be idiots. Your the neckbeards that make people want to blow up America.
The all boy group "DBSK/TVXQ" remade the oh so famous song "Been So Long" which is on Mflo's 10 years tribute album. On the Youtube comments many people were bashing the original by MFLO! Which I personally feel the original is A LOT better and the new one is pretty good also. For the people that says that DBSK's cover is "fresher" well can you consider that the original was made around 1999 and released 2000 and the new one was made just like last year.
Sorry the words are so small
So that's why the Mflo one has an old school hip hop feel to it. But there's so much bashing on people saying that the new one is better. Some people are even like "who's like Mflo" Which makes me wonder if these people are just fangirls who barely know anything about Asian Pop culture except for DBSK, Big Bang, and Super Junior... I personally feel the beat for the DBSK cover was pretty nice but the rapping and singing skills somewhat...eh suffer.But I mean most of the time the original is always better than the cover. This goes w/ movies and music...Here are some comments from another blog:
I wouldn't personally say they "butchered" it I'm just saying I don't think it's right for people to say the original is "horrible" or sucks or DBSK's cover is "WAAAAY!" better. But hey people have their own opinions
Here You decide:
The original by Mflo(lol this is so old Lisa was still in MFLO and her name was still "Unika" lol)
I just got back from Manhattan yesterday. We stayed at the Embassy Suites~!
I know buying fake designer merchandise may be wrong because it's copyright...but on canal street this year there were literally NO fake bags to be bought lol.
So I just got some cute HK jewelry...
I had a good time and got tons of school clothes~!
And Had a fun time...I will upload more "interesting" posts later this day~!!!
I usually change my favorite song like every two weeks but this song has been on my brain for what seems like forever. It's pretty old, like from 1999 and cheap, cus' there just walking round Boston but It's one of their oldest and best songs if u ask me.Mflo/Been so long is pretty like old American hip hop. The re-make is what people are very familiar with. Because DBSK made it...I still think the original is better. The new one's beat is nice though, take a look for yourself.DBSK/Been so long. Take a look for yourself~!
Gyaruru! I really all of their outfits except the one on the far left~!
This school year I really want to try Gyaru inspired dress. I've been into the style since 7th grade and has been scolded for short skirts many of times (heh) But since I'm going to High school the rules are looser!(yay) I've been looking at some magazine scans for this month too, to see new trends.If I wore it it would be filled with lace, and mostly pastel colors...I'll post later ! Mi<3
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September 1, 2010 at 2:19 PM
How to dress...I want to be original but still like in style..Ya know? I'm thinking of a Gyaru style wardrobe change..
Being the NEW girl. I'm not going to the same school as people from my Middle school.